I am so sorry for your loss and the pain you are going through, but there is hope. At John 5:28-29 Jesus gives us the hope of seeing our loved ones again in the coming Resurrection. At Acts 24:15 the apostle Paul assures us of this hope as well. Rev. 21:3-4 speaks of a time when our loving creator Jehovah God will remove all causes for heartache including death! I pray that by meditating on these spritual things you will be encouraged to endure.